@You Are Not Alone - Michael Jackson

for you are not alone

for i am here with you
tough we're far apart
you are always in my heart

i can't believe that
i suddenly decided to
pump the oxygen back into
this blog.

life has been a bitch
and i have been trying to be the pimp.
guess what?

to a certain point of time in life
things happen
people come, people go
some get the apple, some get the watermelon
it sucks..so much, ain't?

but! when these things happen...
you find something amazing.

curious? i bet you are :p
what's amazing is,
you know who are your true friends.
you discover those
who have quietly been your angel,
they had all the choices;
but they still,
chose to be by your side.

sure, it hurts.
when the ones you thought they cared,
are the ones that ignore you...
especially when you...
need them the most.
irony? ironic.
but...what's more than that?

On a very very superbly fantastically random note:

this might be something utmost unappealing,
something that might make you utter "cheh",
something you look at everyday.well, this is of course,
what i look at everyday la not you.
but you have yours as well.

so the very very superbly random question is:
when was the last time you spoke to those who live beside you?
yes, your neighbor.

i spoke to mine today.
as we were talking, i realize that i...
didn't even know how she really looks like
before this. sad la.
she was giving me the "mee suah" that she hand-packed herself,
and a bottle of red wine residue...
"your mom said it tastes delicious to cook this with `ikan bilis"
`anchovies in BM.
***you know what? i never even heard this
myself from my mother***

suddenly it reminds me of how we use to write `karangan
regarding the differences between
"living in a city and in a rural area"
`kehidupan di bandar dan di kampung. bandingkan.
and so we intellectually write all the reasons
that we can think of,
that causes the city people to not know
who is living around them.
`essay
`life in the city and life in the village. compare.

should we think of a way to overcome it
instead of writing all the philosophies
and waste the trees.
when all remains as philosophies.

Again: Do you know your neighbor/s?
*i know i'm annoying, you can rant about it
in the chatterbox :)*

but first i need your hand

then forever can begin.