Saturday, May 31, 2008

eff-ed. XD.

*thinks about all the assignment questions*
somebody.please.

kill. me.
=D


new semester started,
with new life,

new friends,

new aSSignments,

new people,

new tasks,

new responsibilities...

and so on;


same OLD rules.


"if you wanna be a good counselor/psychologist...


YOU KENA JADI BUDAK BAIK."


now that's interesting.
BUDAK BAIK.

---can someone please define baik, for me---
**big juicy puppy eyes**


*screams again*

kill meh.





two, 2 apples...
one, 1 arrow...
*fishing happy*
again somebody please stab me.

Saturday, May 24, 2008

when u lose, u gain;

when you gain, u lose.

never everything.




things have been hard.
i'm really glad.
i pulled them through.
=)




i should be happy cos they made me stronger.
much much stronger.
much much much happier. =D

there are some people,
that i especially wanna thank.
acknowledgements are boring so i won't mention any names
here =P.



but those of you will know.
i promise.










1. bought 7 (yes Seven) flavors of lipbalms.
2. helping a friend promote her home-baked choc chip cookies.
3. semester break is going to be over, things seemed rather dull
but they're going good.
4. thank you to those who were there for me,
especially the meerkat and the SY.
5. i gave my sister 1 lipbalm out of the 7.
6. so i'm left with 6 of them.
7. i'm addicted to thosey (whatever the spelling is) from brickfields.
8. milo can sometimes kill.
9. i got a new purse.
10. i need more sleep...seriously.

love, i feel your presence again. *smiles*
after so long.
*****information regarding lipbalms or cookies can be obtained
from me.









i am really really really doubly triply quadraply,
happy.
i'll remember you,
baby that's forever true.
Thank you.
=3.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

sometimes it is hard to...

...say i am sorry.
but still,
i am sorry.

if i have gone over the limits you've set.

and this is over =)







it is hard,
so i did it here...
and break myself free,
from all the doubts and confusion.

thank you.
loved.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

tears fall when...

...there are words the heart can't say.

...there are feelings we can't put them in words.

...we are at the extreme point of any emotions.
sadness, depression, disappointment, shock, happiness, love, frustration, hopelessness,
betrayal, reminiscence...and a lot more.

...our feelings and emotions are mixed up altogether like
green tea chiller with caramel and chocolate bits added with tomatoes, oranges,
ginger, celery, chilli *gross*

...we have had enough of something.
usually too hard for us to take and shove it down our throats for instance.

***picture credits: Mark Chiew.
***a dear friend since primary school but has not been contacting each other
as often as before =P
***talented boi.


i don't know.
how about you?
=)



something random popped across my mind since recently,
it almost sounded as if...
my conscience is talking to me.

how scary is that?


"what ever you do, never complain just like you never regret.
when you complain,
it just shows how much you care;
how much you want to put yourself in that situation and do something about it,

but...

we always take complains in our own ways,
constructively or destructively."


so... ... ... if you claim you don't care, don't complain. =)
(someone quoted before: malaysians are very very good at complaining =D
whether it was a compliment or sarcasm...)

i don't know. lmao.






i myself sometimes wonder why,
i would cry;
should i say sorry?
just to ease my worry.


i love you.
miss you too =)

Saturday, May 10, 2008

strawberry jam season. =D

PMS.
Pre-Menstrual Syndrome.
wtfwtfwtfwtfwtf.

today while walking around
Mid Valley Megamall
with Meerkatku <3...


"eh, omg wait."
"r u ok? what happened?"
"aiya, shit..."
"huh?"
"i feel down there wet wet one."
"errrr..."
"i think my period came."
"k, lets go toilet =.="

after coming out of the toilet...

*looks innocently at me*
"Jackpot."
"woh, really?"
"yeah. =/"
*smiles*

"why r u smiling?"
*continues smiling '-' *


why lah whyyyyyy.

to me this is more like a
post menstrual syndrome la.
i throw tantrums, i grumble more, i get angry easier, my abdomen bloated, my appetite grew freaking hell lot smaller, feel more tired, emo, frustrated...

and blood-gushing down,


welcoming the...

StrawBerry Jam Season

of every month.

this is what made women special. =D.
don't change it.
-u know what i mean, hehe-
***and men, please appreciate ur ladies for this...
u never know when this is the time...
we need a lil more love =)


why la whyyyy you smiled?
*the reason you gave me is very innocent, and childish*
-yet sweet-
very sweet.






it is...
getting clearer,
and clearer.
i love you.
thanks for every,
single thinggg.

Monday, May 5, 2008

bang bang blood blood. =(

i finished up
my last paper for the term
today. =D

ended with counseling skills.


on the way to campus today...
i witnessed a car accident.
there were already volunteers around
when i was there in the car.

car & motorcycle.


the picture is still
vividly fresh
in my brains.


sigh.

the victim was hit by a car,
laying at the side of the road...
with his head covered with blood.
hand holding on to his mobile phone...
probably trying to reach his loved ones.
heart-wrecking.
yet there was nothing much i can do.


i really hope he's okay.
*prays*
***picture credits: Nicohitoride.***






i know how it feels
to be in a self-conflicted world
where no one else seems
to understand
what say to forgive.

i love you.